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Twenty four years ago this week



9725 Jeremy Street, originally uploaded by vmarinelli.

…in April of 19841,2, I left this house, appropriately enough on Friday the 13th. I was thirteen, and I was not leaving of my own volition. This was the point at which my mother, who had relinquished custody of me just prior to my starting third grade, was compelled to take me back.

While this set into motion a number of events for which I now have cause to be deeply grateful (so that I can say, honestly, that I have no regrets), at the time, I experienced it as a complete rupture of my time-space continuum. Which is to say it was unfathomably traumatic, and served to compound any number of previous traumas that had built up to my father’s and stepmother’s decision to kick me out.

Everything I write eventually traces itself back to what happened in this house. (For further notes, click through to image on Flickr.)

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1 I was called “Vikki Townsend” then.
2 Photo taken in January, 2002, during a trip to see my grandmother, who was then dying. Stopping by this house and taking this picture was at least as important as seeing her draw her last breath.

  • This post is beautiful and a gift. Our stories are so important. I would never do this (I need to be hidden more), but I'm honored that I get to read.

    Also, as regards other blog posts, I get your decision to erase it all, and am glad you are back.
  • You! What an unexpected pleasure to read your kind comment.

    And if you felt okay commenting here again (I still remember, acutely, the circumstances that drove you away before), post- the torpedoing of the previous blog, then it was probably the right thing to do.

    Thanks again.
  • jen
    huh...it is such an innocuous looking place (though I guess it's not really the place so much as the people who harm us)...you have such a great capacity for forgiveness. Love ya!
  • Isn't it though? Today I looked at it from above (Google Maps, not out of body experience, I should specify) and it was so weird, seeing it all so small like that. And your old house and Dawn's and the school, all within blocks of each other - our deceptively insulated world.

    It means so much to me, Jeni (sorry, I know it's Jen now! of course, you can still call me Vikki), that you were there when it all went down, and that you are with me again all these years later, across the miles. I means more to me than you'll ever know.
  • jen
    Just got the chills...it saddens me that mostly all you got are the bad memories (not all of course, but still) when I have such happy ones. I wish I could give some of mine to you. If it's any consolation the things we endure make us who we are and you are fantastic! Here's a hug instead.
  • I wish I could give some of mine to you.

    But honey, you already have. Almost everything good about my experience in California, from hanging out at your place (I so wanted to adopt your mom) to you and me working on the literary magazine, revolves specifically around you.

    Remember this, from my haiku profile?

    Jeni, in 8th grade/
    was the one good thing about/
    1984


    I meant it. Your friendship didn't just make the whole situation survivable, it gave me genuine joy. Thank you.
  • "Sometimes, I guess there's just not enough rocks." (Best scene and only really memorable line from "Forrest Gump".)
  • You sweet boy. I might have to start calling you Forrest.
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